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omg. i am so busy, and my life is so messed up that i haven't gotten time to get a pet, or announce tt i will be getting a new pet.

so this is me announcing:

MY MUM SAYS I CAN GET A DOG!

dear dob-tt-wud-soon-be-mine, i might not spend a lot of time with you, but i promise i will love you even from a gazillion miles away. a dog is a man's best friend. who needs men when you have dogs?

this is step two to being a feminist.

guys, you all have boyfriends that SPOIL MARKET VERY BADLY.

i made the right choice

as a matter of fact, i am turning feminist

first stop: read 'the five jerks you meet in heaven'

i'd do nothing.

i have come to realize that shadiq makes my day.

i ate nothing all of yesterday, except 24 pills for my wisdom teeth extraction. i spent the whole day in bed, dying.

so my pee smells like pills. gross, i know. but it's realli strong.

i am one step away from going to the hospital to wash my stomach i think. lol

so anyway i shudn't have extracted my teeth cos i was sneezing and coughing the day before, but i went ahead anyways.

on the other hand, i am kinda stressed over my apartment (dunno whether can get n dunno if roro wants to share cos it's a little pricey) and packing all my stuffs back. and also my v complicated and easily-faillable internship report.

my initial plan was: die on monday, plan on tuesday and wednesday, rest on thursday, shop on friday. i am already behind time!

but on a lighter note, i am seeing audrey quickly tmr! wonder wad she is up to these days. other than the kissing and can't-see-enough-of-melvin. hehe.

have some thoughts to blog, but next time, when i have more energy.

new found love: the beatles - i want to hold your hand

i attract filipinos, and i find them so funny!

filipino boy number 1 (i never knew his name): you are so cute

filipino boy number 2 (he gave me his e-mail, but i lost it): nobody can make you cry. whoever makes you cry, tell me.

and boy number 2 and me took a picture inside the concierge store room? sounds so sneaky.

i think the language barrier makes the words that form out of some people's mouth so amusing.


anyways, I LOVE FILIPINOS!

and this is for you ciara!

hop your kidney is fine and well. which i am sure it is.

btw, your phone call is WAY LONG OVERDUE

10 October 2009!










i shud get married on 10 October 2010! or 20 October 2010

i have a formula one shirt!

but i am going to give it to my boss :)

and my laptop crashed. SIGHHHH

btw good luck for exams everyone!

i must have done something horribly wrong, it's retribution.

btw, i attract indians. OH EM GEE

been working since last monday. only stopped for a day rest on saturday. been sleeping for only 5hrs a day since sunday. been leaving the office at 9plus the past 2 days.

i am not complaining, just summarising my life. i guess wad sharon said is right: when you work extra hours but you still feel happy, you know that's the path you are going.

i was contemplating running from reality, to work elsewhere in some rubbish job for 2 years. but now i am thinking, i might heed stephanie's advice to find a job in capella, back home where i dun wish i wanna be.

i am really blessed and lucky (though i wish i cud lose all of this and be blessed in other areas), to have people think so highly of me. though i honestly swear i dun rmbr doing much, or trying hard.

karen is risking her job just to make me a part of formula one. details shall be revealed later. i dun ask for much, just a little exposure. i hope she will be safe! n i hope she dusn't give me tickets. i wun know how to reject, or who to go with.

on a lighter (or crazier) note, my sister's birthday is coming! and i have yet to get her present, or make her a card! i am in deep deep shit.

dear jolene, your posts just sitrred up a bunch of emotions inside me. r u my secret soulmate? LOL

anyways. a penny for my thoughts.

what is a relationship, engagement, marriage? what exactly does it mean? i think these r just unnecessary statuses that wear away the meaning of love.

i suppose when u plan weddings, u have a more open mind. i wanted to be a wedding planner because i wanted to do events, with a sleight of creavtivity. to meet people from all walks of life, to hear their story. to pull out all details from start to finish. being a wedding planner would let me explore the possiblities for my own wedding.

however, i have come to realise all these are just decorations that i dun need.

a beautiful gown? if u r happy, u look beautiful in anything.
speech? i dun need anyone to HEAR the love.
champagne pouring? couple toasting? cake cutting? ceremonies that are done just because everyone else does.

i guess when u feel tt way, saying the marriage vows wud then strike a chord in your heart: for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health.

i used to think i am a lil materialistic. it's either i have changed, or i've gotten to know myself better. i dun need all the above or a certificate, as long as there is true love. i dun need all these to prove or show tt i am happy.

nevertheless, i will still want to plan weddings. can't say i wud do the same for my own though. (my boss has been planning weddings for 15 years, n her own was a very simple one.)

what does it take?

i surprise myself sometimes.

so i was on the bus and the driver took a wrong turn. he tried to 10-point turn his way out. it was a reali tight road, and the bus was long. he drove into the roadside drain.

other passengers reaction: OIE!! HEN WEI XIAN!

my reaction:bus toppling over is better than a highway crash. at the most, you lie on ur side and wait for someone to rescue u from the toppled bus.

wad wud ur reaction be?

9 September 2009

9:09 AM/PM

anyone did anything special?

i did

i made a little wish

to all my lovelies:

check my facebook for something that made my day.

this joker working at the concierge did this up, photocopied and started distributing to every employee in the hotel. not to mention his retarded facial expressionas he was doing so.

LOL

OMG my boss asked me to site inspection tomorrow.

as a trainee, there are these guest contacts tt u never do:
1) site inspection
2) sign contract
3) finalisation

by chance, i did number 2 today. din go so bad.

i hope the guest doesn't come tomorrow.

i have trouble talking to adults. no common topic.

i think my bosses think too highly of me.

OMG. butterflies in my stomach.

christine says: you are torturing yourself

true

what makes you happy? decide now. don't regret.

my internship started off pretty well (with the exception of 2 bitches in the department, but they don't matter so much). now is chinese ghost month, thus i have only been to 3 weddings so far.

1) bride and groom: dun wanna march in, dun wanna make speech. when we approached them before march-in, they looked so solemn and were not talking

2) only saw the groom rehearsing a song, but no emotions felt. n he looks super stressed!

3) bride and groom were quarreling

received another call today. this couple signed a contract but decided not to marry. tried to sell their package but still no one wants to buy it. instead of paying 100% for an unattended event, they decided to hold the banquet in the end.

and couples at the wedding show. signing just for the sake of extra perks. it seems like money is the main issue, not love.

this makes me wonder, does every couple end up being so unhappy? it is afterall, still a wedding banquet. did they marry the one they truly love? are they happy? what is a marriage to them? is money the practicality of a marriage? or should i say, the practicality of everything.

marriage is the union of two souls, the start of a new chapter of their lives together. a lifelong commitment that entails both selflessness and selfishness. a ceremony should be attended by those who give their true blessings, and such that can be felt throughout the room.

i always pictured every wedding couple to be very much in love, to look forward to the nitty gritty details of the wedding. i always pictured i wud help them along the way, with novelty for each couple i meet.

i am glad i got this internship, cos i realised mass duplicates of 4 themes all year round for 150 (stingy, unhappy) couples is something i dun wanna do, at least for the next 8 years of my life when i dun have kids. i might do this, when i have a family.  

but as they always say, you never marry the one you love. i might just be like one of these i am talking about now. you never know.

my heart aches, so much.