jarls

a quick one

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 04:53:01 GMT

my dear friends, i realised you guys have updated A LOT. i am not even halfway done reading but gotta put that off first already.

i figure there's 2 reasons:
1) jarls is dunno-doing-what everyday
2) you guys, like debbie said, are blogging more than usual during exam period!

i stayed till like 1 am in the office last week!

and i have serios updates!

cya all soon! i believe it's 4th or 5th or everyday starting from the 4th?

okk, back to work.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 15:34:29 GMT

omg. i am so busy, and my life is so messed up that i haven't gotten time to get a pet, or announce tt i will be getting a new pet.

so this is me announcing:

MY MUM SAYS I CAN GET A DOG!

dear dob-tt-wud-soon-be-mine, i might not spend a lot of time with you, but i promise i will love you even from a gazillion miles away. a dog is a man's best friend. who needs men when you have dogs?

this is step two to being a feminist.

changing gears

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 16:20:30 GMT

guys, you all have boyfriends that SPOIL MARKET VERY BADLY.

i made the right choice

as a matter of fact, i am turning feminist

first stop: read 'the five jerks you meet in heaven'

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 15:27:59 GMT

i'd do nothing.

i have come to realize that shadiq makes my day.

so many things, so little time! (and not to mention bad health)

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:38:28 GMT

i ate nothing all of yesterday, except 24 pills for my wisdom teeth extraction. i spent the whole day in bed, dying.

so my pee smells like pills. gross, i know. but it's realli strong.

i am one step away from going to the hospital to wash my stomach i think. lol

so anyway i shudn't have extracted my teeth cos i was sneezing and coughing the day before, but i went ahead anyways.

on the other hand, i am kinda stressed over my apartment (dunno whether can get n dunno if roro wants to share cos it's a little pricey) and packing all my stuffs back. and also my v complicated and easily-faillable internship report.

my initial plan was: die on monday, plan on tuesday and wednesday, rest on thursday, shop on friday. i am already behind time!

but on a lighter note, i am seeing audrey quickly tmr! wonder wad she is up to these days. other than the kissing and can't-see-enough-of-melvin. hehe.

have some thoughts to blog, but next time, when i have more energy.

new found love: the beatles - i want to hold your hand

i attract filipinos!

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 13:51:31 GMT

i attract filipinos, and i find them so funny!

filipino boy number 1 (i never knew his name): you are so cute

filipino boy number 2 (he gave me his e-mail, but i lost it): nobody can make you cry. whoever makes you cry, tell me.

and boy number 2 and me took a picture inside the concierge store room? sounds so sneaky.

i think the language barrier makes the words that form out of some people's mouth so amusing.

anyways, I LOVE FILIPINOS!

and this is for you ciara!

hop your kidney is fine and well. which i am sure it is.

btw, your phone call is WAY LONG OVERDUE

tread softly because you tread on my dreams

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 13:24:55 GMT

wisdom comes with pain

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 13:48:59 GMT

10 October 2009!

i shud get married on 10 October 2010! or 20 October 2010

formula one

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 13:14:45 GMT

i have a formula one shirt!

but i am going to give it to my boss :)

and my laptop crashed. SIGHHHH

btw good luck for exams everyone!

random!

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 15:26:58 GMT

i must have done something horribly wrong, it's retribution.

btw, i attract indians. OH EM GEE

you are fortunate

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 15:41:45 GMT

been working since last monday. only stopped for a day rest on saturday. been sleeping for only 5hrs a day since sunday. been leaving the office at 9plus the past 2 days.

i am not complaining, just summarising my life. i guess wad sharon said is right: when you work extra hours but you still feel happy, you know that's the path you are going.

i was contemplating running from reality, to work elsewhere in some rubbish job for 2 years. but now i am thinking, i might heed stephanie's advice to find a job in capella, back home where i dun wish i wanna be.

i am really blessed and lucky (though i wish i cud lose all of this and be blessed in other areas), to have people think so highly of me. though i honestly swear i dun rmbr doing much, or trying hard.

karen is risking her job just to make me a part of formula one. details shall be revealed later. i dun ask for much, just a little exposure. i hope she will be safe! n i hope she dusn't give me tickets. i wun know how to reject, or who to go with.

on a lighter (or crazier) note, my sister's birthday is coming! and i have yet to get her present, or make her a card! i am in deep deep shit.

decorations you don't need

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 15:39:44 GMT

dear jolene, your posts just sitrred up a bunch of emotions inside me. r u my secret soulmate? LOL

anyways. a penny for my thoughts.

what is a relationship, engagement, marriage? what exactly does it mean? i think these r just unnecessary statuses that wear away the meaning of love.

i suppose when u plan weddings, u have a more open mind. i wanted to be a wedding planner because i wanted to do events, with a sleight of creavtivity. to meet people from all walks of life, to hear their story. to pull out all details from start to finish. being a wedding planner would let me explore the possiblities for my own wedding.

however, i have come to realise all these are just decorations that i dun need.

a beautiful gown? if u r happy, u look beautiful in anything.
speech? i dun need anyone to HEAR the love.
champagne pouring? couple toasting? cake cutting? ceremonies that are done just because everyone else does.

i guess when u feel tt way, saying the marriage vows wud then strike a chord in your heart: for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health.

i used to think i am a lil materialistic. it's either i have changed, or i've gotten to know myself better. i dun need all the above or a certificate, as long as there is true love. i dun need all these to prove or show tt i am happy.

nevertheless, i will still want to plan weddings. can't say i wud do the same for my own though. (my boss has been planning weddings for 15 years, n her own was a very simple one.)

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 23:45:41 GMT

what does it take?

what do you do

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 14:21:43 GMT

i surprise myself sometimes.

so i was on the bus and the driver took a wrong turn. he tried to 10-point turn his way out. it was a reali tight road, and the bus was long. he drove into the roadside drain.

other passengers reaction: OIE!! HEN WEI XIAN!

my reaction:bus toppling over is better than a highway crash. at the most, you lie on ur side and wait for someone to rescue u from the toppled bus.

wad wud ur reaction be?

09/09/09

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 13:20:12 GMT

9 September 2009

9:09 AM/PM

anyone did anything special?

i did

i made a little wish

check my facebook

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 14:12:15 GMT

to all my lovelies:

check my facebook for something that made my day.

this joker working at the concierge did this up, photocopied and started distributing to every employee in the hotel. not to mention his retarded facial expressionas he was doing so.

LOL

OMG

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 12:38:45 GMT

OMG my boss asked me to site inspection tomorrow.

as a trainee, there are these guest contacts tt u never do:
1) site inspection
2) sign contract
3) finalisation

by chance, i did number 2 today. din go so bad.

i hope the guest doesn't come tomorrow.

i have trouble talking to adults. no common topic.

i think my bosses think too highly of me.

OMG. butterflies in my stomach.

christine says

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 10:51:33 GMT

christine says: you are torturing yourself

true

what makes you happy? decide now. don't regret.

what does "marriage" signifies?

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 14:46:00 GMT

my internship started off pretty well (with the exception of 2 bitches in the department, but they don't matter so much). now is chinese ghost month, thus i have only been to 3 weddings so far.

1) bride and groom: dun wanna march in, dun wanna make speech. when we approached them before march-in, they looked so solemn and were not talking

2) only saw the groom rehearsing a song, but no emotions felt. n he looks super stressed!

3) bride and groom were quarreling

received another call today. this couple signed a contract but decided not to marry. tried to sell their package but still no one wants to buy it. instead of paying 100% for an unattended event, they decided to hold the banquet in the end.

and couples at the wedding show. signing just for the sake of extra perks. it seems like money is the main issue, not love.

this makes me wonder, does every couple end up being so unhappy? it is afterall, still a wedding banquet. did they marry the one they truly love? are they happy? what is a marriage to them? is money the practicality of a marriage? or should i say, the practicality of everything.

marriage is the union of two souls, the start of a new chapter of their lives together. a lifelong commitment that entails both selflessness and selfishness. a ceremony should be attended by those who give their true blessings, and such that can be felt throughout the room.

i always pictured every wedding couple to be very much in love, to look forward to the nitty gritty details of the wedding. i always pictured i wud help them along the way, with novelty for each couple i meet.

i am glad i got this internship, cos i realised mass duplicates of 4 themes all year round for 150 (stingy, unhappy) couples is something i dun wanna do, at least for the next 8 years of my life when i dun have kids. i might do this, when i have a family.

but as they always say, you never marry the one you love. i might just be like one of these i am talking about now. you never know.

my heart aches, so much.

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 05:08:20 GMT

my heart aches, so much.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 14:29:24 GMT

"i should have known, what is lost will never come back. fighting is pointless."

jarls fourth april two thousand nine

glion institute of higher education

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 11:47:37 GMT

life in glion from mondays to thursdays
1) wake up at 630 to bathe and maybe have breakfast with jiajia n julie, depending on our schedules
2) go for classes and make lots of noise with ara, ciara, piril etc etc
3) have no lessons for 2-4 hours in between - shall go to my room n stone or disturb someone cos doesn't make sense to start on project research
4) meet jiajia & julie for lunch
5) go back to lessons again
6) have dinner at jiajia & julie's place
7) do some homework and packing and try to catch hold of my project group members
8) chat with ian at 11pm for one hour
9) hit the covers at 12 midnight

life in glion on fridays
1) lessons in the morning only
2) lunch with jiajia & julie
3) go down to montreux to do some errands n come back to cook dinner/ eat at montreux
4) stone for the rest of the day with nothing to look forward to cos no webcam date with ian
5) maybe will watch a movie before hitting the covers

life in glion on saturdays
1) breakfast
2) maybe chat with ian/ go out shopping
3) do homework/ project & GET PROJECT MEMBERS FOR MEETINGS
4) stone again
5) dinner
6) movies maybe
7) sleep

life in glion on sundays
1) breakfast
2) laundry
3) chat with ian
4) stone
5) homework
6) sleep

i have like 4 projects, with deadlines in like 2 weeks. god save me.

Back in Suisse

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 18:59:59 GMT

Hello all. I’m finally going to revive my blog cos I’m back here again in boring Switzerland. I’m sitting in a hotel room and not back in school yet, so I do not have much to complain. But I reali do have mixed feelings about this place. It is the place that would guarantee me a good degree, good prospects for the future. But this is also the place that separates me from Ian, the comfort of a wonderful home and my family. I’ve decided I will have to see my boyfriend during every mid-term break. So I will ask my mum to let me come back, but of cos to be realistic and practical, I gotta look at my time table. If I have CBL that ends just before mid-term, I will have a lot less days back home. That shall be that only reason why I won’t go home. Even then, I dun think that will stop me from going home anyway.

Few days before I was leaving, I spent so much time with Ian, crying in his arms, feeling so bad for leaving him again. He is the best man I’ve ever met, I reali couldn’t ask for more. I’m willing to give up anything for him. If one day he needs a heart, I will give it to him without hesitation. I am sure of that. The day just before I left and the day I left, I only shed a few tears, till now, I’ve not burst out in tears yet.

And I’ve also come to realize that no matter which hotel I stay, where I go, home is still the most comfortable. I could stay in at home for a long long long time without going out. Time passes so fast with scrapbooking and crap shows like The Tyra Banks Show. If I am hungry, I just get the maid to cook something for me. If I have anything missing in the house, I can always ask my mum to buy. I do not have to bother myself with anything at all.

Switzerland is so boring without your better half. Time always flies when I am with Ian. But when you are with your frens, it’s a lot different. Everytime I am in Suisse, I am just counting down the time. I dunno how many times I look at the clock a day. And the time difference kills me more. Cos time seems to pass faster in Singapore as it is 6 hours ahead of us.

If school is like as crappy as last time with stupid lessons, stupid teachers and irritating classmates, I dunno if I even wanna get a degree at all. And if the internet connection is still screwed up and I can’t watch YouTube or chat peacefully with Ian, I am going to quit school. Plus the prospect of spending a lot of money again scares me. I am also afraid to work in projects with irritating people, people who take credit for the things u do.

I sometimes wonder if I reali do need a degree at all. Afterall I wanna be a wedding planner. But then again the pursuit of a degree offers so much more. It stands for all that Ian and I have worked out for the future. Our plan was to pursue masters together in London, get engaged and move in together to a brand new home at 26, get married at 28 and have a baby at 29. Maybe someday I will become GM of Raffles Hotel Jakarta, as my husband will be based in Jakarta then. But without a degree, there will be no masters and Raffles Hotel Jakarta. This means I will be separated from Ian for 1 yr. I dun wanna be separated from him ever again. So I’ve decided I will have to see him every mid-term break and I will come back to Singapore for my second internship.

But there is still another thing that bothers me, the packing and unpacking. It kills. I hate it. I reali hate it. It’s tiring, time consuming, and totally ridiculous.

Oh, the agony.

in IT class

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 13:26:02 GMT

hello all i am in IT class now and i am damn excited cos this is the first time i am using the internet. i think the teacher forgot to switch it off!!!! haha anyways. exams r coming soon n i am damn excited to come home!! muacks.

christmas in my heart

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 21:06:46 GMT

Every time we say goodbye
There's something breaking deep inside
I tried to hide my feelings to keep myself controlled
But somehow I can't deny what's deep inside my soul

I've been always on the run
So many different places, having fun
But like a river always knows just where to flow
Now that December comes I feel like coming home

It's Christmas in my heart
When I'm with you
No matter where we are or what we do

Tomorrow may be grey
We may be torn apart
But if you stay tonight
It's Christmas in my heart

I don't know how to stay alive
Without your touch without you by my side
Just like the desert's always waiting for the rain
Oh baby, I wish the holy night would come again

Everywhere I go and everyone I know
Is making lots of wishes for old Santa Claus
But all I really need tonight
Is for you to come and hold me tight
What is Christmas without you here by my side
I need you tonight